2021

1 Second Everyday: 2021

Between government and professional incompetence, along with a few mental health bumps as a result, I found 2021 a lot harder than 2020. Restrictions, lockdowns, and social distancing continued to hurt quite a bit, but I continued on with my 1 Second Everyday project all the same. 2021 is now complete! Here’s the video!

There were a few points where I wanted to stop doing this, but looking back at the quick cuts along the year i’m incredibly thankful that I continued with it. I enjoy watching these immensely and it’s always rewarding rediscovering those smaller, happier, close-up moments of the year at large.

Work on the 2022 video starts today!

2021 was...

Lockdown again, Unsafe working conditions, Building a LEGO Castle, Boardgames, Attempting Post Graduate study, Twitch streaming, Muscle imabalance, No running, Visiting Ousdale Broch, Resident Evil: Village, Visiting relatives, Helensburgh, Brora beach day, Designing RPGs, TartanLUG, Turning 35, Big Burn Walk, Lots of fish & chips, Catching Covid at work, Wild swimming, The waves, Vaccination, Adopting Wisp, A toxic work environment, Incompetence, Bad mental health, The waves, Not muscle imabalance but nerve damage, Glasgow trip, Gentlemen Sesh, A new job, Chilly & Angie’s wedding, Dune, More bad mental health, Good friends, Storm Arwen, Wednesday Pints, Vicky’s birthday, A successful interview, Booster jab, and the small glimmer of hope again.

It was a lot harder than last year.

March Status Update

March was…

As The Crow Flies (working title)

Inspiration struck! Earlier this month I had an idea to run a small week-long RPG over messages in a Choose Your Own Adventure style, and I spent a few days writing it all up. Some paths work a lot better than others narratively and it’s mostly finished…but it’s something that I really want to develop further! At just under 3000 words it’s kind of taken on a life of it’s own, BUT I love that, and I’m really excited to continue with it, either in it’s current format or something else entirely.

Wandavision

After pretty much an entire year of no cinema trips or superhero films, Wandavision releasing recently on Disney+ was an unexpected treat. Both ‘Scarlett Witch’ and Vision have been notoriously under-utilised in the Avengers and wider Marvel Cinematic Universe films so I really enjoyed this six hour piece. It was incredibly satisfying having this to look forward to and theorise about each week, and I loved watching it progress into a great mystery that builds and subsequently unravels in nine episodes, tinged with love, grief, life, and existentialism. A superb experiment that finally gave emotional resonance and character moments to a MCU that’s mostly without. A lot better than I anticipated!

Building and Streaming Lego Medieval Blacksmith 21325

This month I continued building the new Lego Medieval Blacksmith 21325 set and streaming progress over on my Twitch channel. The set is incredibly detailed and makes a great display piece and I had lots of fun building it with all the new bricks and techniques used. Streaming the build was a bit of an interesting one -people actually watched!- and I enjoyed nattering on about Lego history and pieces. It definitely gave me a new appreciation for the hard work that streaming requires, but I don’t think it’s something I can commit to regularly. Hard work! I recorded all the video and trimmed all 7 hours into a time-lapsed 25 minutes, but without audio -and still too long?- I’ve yet to upload. This might be something that gets finished and uploaded online or I might honestly just keep for myself as a memento. Streaming may be something I take-up every so often.

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Big Decisions

With a disastrous February, I re-evaluated quite a bit. After a lot of consideration I came to the difficult decision of withdrawing from my Post-Graduate study. This was really hard to do but came down to ultimately being frazzled from full-time work, winter mental stuff, and continued pandemic exhaustion. I really enjoyed what I was studying but was always scraping by each week by only studying the absolute minimum and skipping lots of stuff- I really wasn’t able to give the materials the time, energy, or love that it needed. I would have much preferred spending more time on it, or having the time in the first place. So i’m annoyed at that but will pick it up again at a better time, in a few years or even later in life. The positive effects of that decision however have been immediate. Less stress, more relaxing, oysters of free time, and honestly just a sunnier outlook. I’m not griefing myself the same about sitting doing nothing or not working. It’s a good feeling.

April is…

looking promising! Next month I want to start work on a new Lego project, play lots of games, and if everything goes to plan, get back to normal and have more frequent meets and meals with friends. Fingers crossed!

February Status Update

February is the shortest month of the year and went by, as expected, suitably fast. This month was a bit of a struggle with life feeling A LOT right now, so I’m going to change the post format up this month and just reel off some of the stuff that happened. The end of the month is here a lot sooner than I’m ready for it!

  • I finally completed my Lego Castle MOC, posted the pics here, and really promoted it pretty heavily across all my social media channels. I love how well it came out and it looks really great finished- much better than I ever could’ve hoped for. It’s done really well online and lots of people have liked, commented, and loved it, and that’s a nice feeling. It’s been built to display at Lego exhibitions, but I’ll be making and posting a video of the Castle in the meantime soonish.

  • This month I joined my *third* ongoing Dungeons & Dragons campaign, jumping into a new party with a new DM. Already playing as Henk the Half-Orc Barbarian Dentist and Panwick the Cunning Halfling Heist-burgular in my other games, I’m now also playing as Medarin Dunshield; a stoic Paladin with backstory tragedy travelling to Icewind Dale to vanquish great evil. All games feel greatly different tonally and I really like that. More fantasy escapism please!

  • I started building Lego 21325 Medieval Blacksmith this month! This was a post-xmas lockdown treat that I bought for myself and I’m currently building it now…

  • …live on Twitch! This is something I enjoyed doing a lot more than I thought I would and it was good to just sit and talk about Lego for two whole hours. Strangely therapeutic! I’m aiming to build every sunday, you can follow along at twitch.tv/rditr

  • I started studying properly -after registering last month- and I am now a History and Archaeology student! For the most part I am enjoying studying again, but it has been difficult jumping in head first and trying to adapt to the pace of it. There’s a lot of reading, a lot of writing, and then even more additional reading if there’s time or energy left. I’ve found myself a bit overwhelmed with it at times but hopefully this all balances out as the weeks progress.

  • Winter was winter (cold with snow), work was work (busy with reports), and lockdown was lockdown (exhausting with emptiness).

I’ve been having a lot of problems balancing everything this month and it’s been a big reccuring problem for me. Winter, work, and continued lockdown in particular have really made the easy tasks feel quite hard, and while I want to do so much in the evenings and weekends, the energy, time, and enthusiasm really isn’t there. A constant big conflict of “what I need to do” VS “what I want to do” VS “what i’m going to do instead”, and the latter is, as the above; more D&D, Lego stuff, and big evenings just playing The Sims. In March I’m hopeful everything will slow down a little and I can get back on track with anything I need to do. On that list “RELAX” has a big line underneath it.

New Year Goals

Happy New Year! Last year I set myself some resolutions for the year ahead and while I met some of them, rando factors such as leg injury and GLOBAL PANDEMIC meant there were plenty of travel and running based ones I couldn’t actually achieve. I still managed to propose to a long-waiting Ailish though, so some very big life goals ticked there instead!

Resolutions are funny ones- I realise today is just like any other…Friday, but goals, aspirations, bettering and challenging yourself as a person should never be something seen as cynical or negative. The world and society can change on complete whims however, so while I’m loosely aiming to do some of the things below I’m mindful as well of their viability. Writing them down keeps me accountable I guess, but also, maybe, inspires others?

  • After reading 25 books last year, this year I want to read even more. It might not sound like much but last year I ream more than any other year in my life, and I really want to continue that. I’ve got a big pile of things I’m starting on shortly, if you want to follow my process give me a follow on Goodreads.

  • Something I’m also looking forward to starting is Creative Writing! Last year over lockdown I took some online courses, did a few writing prompts and read On Writing by Stephen King. Full of ideas and shit, I’m hoping to start writing something properly in the first half of the year.

  • This year I want to finish my Lego Castle WIP and I’m not planning on posting or talking about it anymore until it’s finished. This one’s definitely getting done! If the virus and the world behaves I’m hoping to display the Castle in public and attend a few Lego shows too, but this is very subject to change.

  • Equally ambitious is travelling more. I really want to visit different places again and see new sights, and if travel abroad isn’t viable I’d still like to explore Scotland a bit more and have some staycations instead.

  • If I’m able to I’d like to get running again. A leg injury (diagnosis leading towards a trapped nerve at the moment) means I wasn’t really active at all in 2020. If possible I want to get moving again, but completely at my own pace and distance, so no races or PB targets at all. Just gentle running for fun.

  • Last year I watched 141 films, and 82 films I’d never seen before- a lot of films! A lot of Michael Caine, Christopher Nolan, and Daniel Craig, and blockbuster tentpole franchises. I want to watch more this year again, but this time I want to diversify a bit with different directors, actors, and voices, and probably more low-key stuff.

And just generally look after myself physically and mentally a lot better, through exercise, better eating, and less doomscrolling! 2020 was a bit of a disaster on this front, but I’m hoping to take steps to get back to where I should be, and that should make all of the above a lot easier. Lets see how well that goes…