AFOL: Adult Fan of Lego

Lego fans, generally, all go through a transition.

There is the childhood “Lego is fun!” beginning, the awkward “I’m too old for this” teen years, and then the eager submission and acceptance as adults: “I have money now”/”that looks cool”/”I wanted that when I was younger”. I’m at an age now where the phrase “when I was younger” is becoming more and more common in my daily life, but nonetheless, when I was younger… I was absolutely mad for Lego. Castles, and Pirates, and so many Helicopters. I had other toys but for me, there was always Lego and excitingly buckets and buckets of it. Birthdays and Christmasses were involutarily small-scale Lego events. Trips to hospital would always be rewarded with Lego. Pocket money would mean, of course, Lego. I don’t think I really had many of the big sets of the 90s when I was growing up, but there were hundreds of smaller sets and vehicles, minifigures and adventure bases, and it all massed itself into quite the respectable collection, enough for years of some pretty sweet imagination and building.

When I hit puberty I became susceptible to the same societal cool/lame (AND GREASY) pressures and problems as everyone else, and stopped collecting and playing with Lego outright. This would’ve been around the early 2000s at some point. I suspect computer games, music, and the internet played a huge part in that echoing that entire generation of children, but Lego, and the company itself were struggling at the time, with some bizarre set design choices and very questionable innovations. The Lego Group faltered immensely in the early 00s (and not just because of me, silly) dabbling in CDRoms and Webcam film-making tools, and producing absolutely hundreds of Bionicle sets, very different sets and ideas to the classic, common brick. I still don’t know what the fuck a Bionicle is. I never want to find out.

Lego fans commonly refer to their time away from Lego as “Dark Ages”, and it usually occurs at the same age for all builders. Boys are cool, right? My Lego Dark Ages lasted for several years -mostly High School, (hell) which would then of course gave way to some actual Dark Ages: my own mental health doubt, depression et al for a few years after (actual hell). I wasn’t interested in Lego any more but for years it felt like I wasn’t interested in anything any more. I didn’t do much of anything, creativity was a foreign concept, and I just really moped around for years while studying part-time. There was a lot of late nights, tv repeats and internet scrolling. Sometimes there were family dinners. While I was off The Lego Group were very much still on, and they kept producing and releasing sets throughout the noughties. Up until the early 2000s Lego as a product had only been original themes and in-house IPs, but in the turn of the millenium two franchises dominated the entertainment -and subsequently toy- industries: Star Wars and Harry Potter. I was a fan of both at the time but the actual Lego sets relating to both IP garnered no interest from myself- something something not as good as my childhood etc. Soon after this was exemplified: on a random rainy afternoon’s internet trawling, I stumbled upon LUGNET, The International LEGO Users Group Network.

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Let's Talk July 2020

July was a month of days out, ‘Dark Knight, and deactivating Facebook.

With quarantine and working from home this past month I’ve still found myself a bit up and down mentally but during these “strange times” I’ve accepted it and I’m okay with it. Physically my right leg is still sore as hell, i’m definitely less okay with it- lets continue the stretches. Mood swings are expected, it’s normal to have them, that’s what i’m self- reassuring. What has helped lots however has been less daily social media. I wrote at length previously about why I deactivated Facebook but four weeks later this is something that’s stuck. I’ve deactivated before for a day at a time, so i’m a little surprised, but this has been so liberating, and not nearly as FOMO-inducing as I had worried. Who knew!?! Definitely a win for my 2020.

Lockdown is easing, and with better weather these past few weeks we made an effort to go out and about a bit more. On a very sunny saturday we headed out West a bit and went to Armadale Beach Bay and Strathy Point, packing swimming gear and towels. Despite good intentions this was mistimed, and wind (and rising tides) meant that we weren’t really able to get swimming at all. Ailish tried all the same, but standing in the sea with waves that go up and overhead is maybe all the indication and warning anyone needs. Nonetheless we walked and explored lots, and I took far too many photos and videos as usual: is 300+ too many? Definitely.

Two weeks later we headed to Latheronwheel Harbour to visit The Fairy Glen. Ailish and Wes had been here previously, but despite all my time in Caithness, I had never been. When we arrived the harbour was full of people picnicking, diving from height and swimming -we *really* shouldve brought our own gear- and the walk was a good hour of wandering. Over the bridge, up the hill, and finally down again through the trees to the Fairy Glen itself. Full of trees, rocks, logs and stumps with small decorative doors, windows, and paths, it’s a miniature woodland town with plenty of imagination, heart, and craft skill. We didnt get to see any actual fairies while we were there, they were obviously having a lockdown quarantine of their own. It was inspiring though- I left wanting to make a Fairy House for myself/garden.

This month we rewatched The Dark Knight trilogy. Batman Begins is a shocking 15 years old this month so it made sense to go back and watch them all. The franchise introduced me to director Christopher Nolan’s work, and while I loved them all at the time, it’s now really easy to see their faults/limitations/plot holes. I think for what it’s worth Batman Begins is easily the best Batman film ever with some of the backstory choices and narrative thematics, but The Dark Knight is without a doubt the best film film of the trilogy for just how damn stylish and tightly plotted it is. Dark Knight Rises is fun, but overdrawn, and really not the send-off the trilogy needs. Watching them all back to back now the trilogy feels very uneven in both pace and tone, with some very loose connections, but I still prefer them by far to all the other Batman films. We also watched The Conjuring and Hereditary this month, scary shit. The former was fun and felt relatively trope, the latter was…well, i’m still thinking about it at large, twenty days later. It’s a really bold film, it’s mastercraft slowly unravelling and scaring me the more I think back to it. What a film.

With things in the UK “going back to normal” I made a final push on what i’m building at the moment. I started landscaping for a Lego Castle back in April by building a waterfall but it sat mostly stagnant after realising that due to everything else, it wasn’t going to be at any of the exhibitions/shows later this year I had planned. I spent a few days this month getting good work done on it however and i’m very happy with how it’s coming along, if still somewhat daunted at everything I now need to do to finish it. I *might* have had this feeling before at just…everything i’ve done creatively? The picture below is a bit crap but the potential is there! I’m hoping to have this finished and forested by the end of next month. We’ll see.

This month (and hopefully going forward?) i’ve been posting here, and so far it seems to be going okay. Reflection, and writing are quite important I think, and i’ve found it good while everything the world over turns to shit, no irony. It still seems selfish to put so much focus and energy on myself, but it certainly feels like it’s been working. I made a 1 Second Everyday this month as ever, i’m still really enjoying doing that. Trying to embed it as video here, i’m enjoying that less so.

Phonetically, the word “month” is weird, right? MUN-TH.

Armadale Beach Bay

I took lots (read: far too many) photos and videos when we were out at Armadale Sutherland last week. Ill get a post for it sorted properly soon, but here’s the three I recently posted on Instagram. It looks warm and sunny, but those waves were COLD, definitely not as much swimming as we hoped.

Ben Bhraggie 2019

Ben Bhraggie 2019

Travelling south, the stark contrast between the counties of Caithness and Sutherland is always evident. Caithness, brown, mossy, generally flat is immediately at odds with the green, woodland, and hilly Sutherland. As a child in the car, travelling down the A9 road the difference was noticeable as soon as Brora neared, usually signalling we were both an hour away from where we left, but more promisingly, an hour closer to where we were travelling to. As we passed Helmsdale and Portgower we always got closer to whatever destination we were headed, and as we did, we always saw a statue on the hill in the distance.

History lesson: The statue, known locally as The Mannie, sits at 30 metres high on top of the Ben Bhraggie hill, itself reaching a height of just under 400 metres. Erected in 1837, the monument is a large square plinth with a statue above depicting George Granville Leveson-Gower, Marquess of Stafford and first Duke of Sutherland. The Duke himself became notorious for the part he played in the Highland Clearances, turning large amounts of land over to sheep farming industry, and reforms that would result in thousands having to move out and rehome themselves. In 2020 with racist and offensive statues being pulled down and re-evaluated this is perhaps even more relevant, but even with calls and campaigns to remove The Mannie, close to 200 years later the statue remains. Driving along the coast as a child passenger all those years ago and now, as an adult, the figurative shape looms large on the horizon from a considerable distance, always noticeably other than just a “standard” war monument or memorial, definitely a sight.

I had never seen the statue up close or even been at the top of the hill, but for one reason or another my friends and I decided to climb Ben Bhraggie.

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I deactivated Facebook

2020 has been a weird year for me, and i’d by lying if I said Lockdown wasn’t a big part of that. Ive alluded previously to media exhaustion and certainly when everything was all falling apart in March (AND April, AND May) I found myself relying on my phone and social media a lot more. One for news, two for, well, comfort I guess? During Lockdown I’ve leaned heavily into refresh loops and endless scrolling, and while for the most part I found myself informed, I was also continually, disappointed, tired, and angry. Part of this was at poor Government leadership, but a much bigger part of it was just constant online toxicity.

I was mega irritable and always drained, I had a really hard time switching off and doing things for myself. I did achieve things eventually but usually always against an unfocused self. I would switch my phone off for entire days, delete apps, and then a week and a half ago, I just decided to delete everything off Facebook outright. Individual photos from holidays, my graduation, videos, life, everything. It took forever (did you know that Facebook really doesn’t like you bulk-deleting your own content?). Increasingly in recent years I haven’t been posting and ‘engaging’ Facebook and I was only ever there for THE SCROLL and just force of habit. But doing that always fed me the same thing: lots of faux outrage and controversy all the time over lots of stuff that (really) didn’t matter, and just endless inane bickering. Likes and shares for a new shop, sponsored content, and countless “You may be interested in” posts. Annoyingly, the algorithm would continue to repeat that content over again instead of what I actually wanted to see from the people I wanted to hear from. For the last year and maybe more the site definitely wasn’t helping me “connect and share with the people in life” and in Spring 2020 that is really what I needed more than anything. The site -or my algorithm- just became a cycle of judging, hate, and misinformation- something that’s actively in the news atm with corporations and advertisers pulling out too. I doubt the companies are quite as concerned about their mental health as I was, but still.

I asked friends who weren’t on Facebook how they managed without it, if they had FOMO and just generally I think I had built up the very skewed perception that my social life was that website, and that website only. Deactivating it that sunday morning suddenly became a very big decision and I worried that my social life was over, I was going to be weird, I was going to miss so much…I just did it. Lockdown has already helped re-evaluate what and who are important in my life, I know what I like, I know what I want to do, and I know who’s interested in supporting those things by the regular check-ins and catch ups. Things pivoted and changed in these three months for myself and Facebook doesn’t have a place anymore… but for the better I think? That’s why this post exists- I’m going to try blogging again. If I have life events I should be talking about them, I should be sharing and writing about them, it’s just not something I want or necessarily need to do on Facebook. It’s 2020, social media is corporate media, I’m not sure if blogging is cool or not, lets give it a shot. It’s good to try new different things once in a while.

1 Second Everyday: Two Years Later

As of this month i’ve now been filming -and sharing!- my 1 Second Everyday for two whole years! I never quite expected the project to get so far- I started using the app almost randomly and only expected to get one month or so out of it, but making these videos is something I now rely on daily. These last few months have been quite difficult but i’ve still enjoyed putting the videos together, so maybe i’ll just do this forever? Here is the video for June 2020- as ever i’ll be stiching all the months together at year end to make something bigger.

(Did you know embedding Instagram content -and videos!- on Squarespace are a lot harder than necessary? Today I found out they are)

My Favourite Films

Over on Instagram i’ve been taking part in a 30 Day Film “Challenge”, posting film posters and art to specific prompts, and then invariably giving a few comments about why I picked them. Some of the daily prompts are quite vapid, and some a lot more meaningful than others, but It’s something i’ve enjoyed doing daily. Recommending films is something i’m always eager to do, but this gave me reason to actually stop and think what my favourites were. A recurring issue ive had with the challenge is finding myself wanting to write even more about why these films are so good, why they’re special or clever or why I’ve enjoyed them so much, hence this post here.

All-time favourites and top lists are always subject to change, of course, and there’s always going to be discourse and debate about any list. It’s not ordered at all, it’s quite loose, it’s just films that I really like for one reason or another. I’m not even sure if these are my definitive favourite films so i’ve included other possible candidates/runners up at the bottom. I might redo in a year’s time just to see.

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Lockdown 2020: Three Months Later

Three months later, for better or worse, it’s only really now that the UK (and Scotland in particular) is easing lockdown. I’ve written a little about it, but for the most part i’ve reserved the nitty gritty and worst of it all for my diary and daily moping. That might seem a little bit of an exaggeration, but hands down, the last few weeks have been weird, and hopefully a once-in-a-lifetime deal. I can safely say I never want to experience these three months mentally again and i’m sure plenty of others are in a similar boat.

With the last three months suddenly there was an abundance of free time, there’s less social requirements, and for myself just less urgency all around if i’m honest. When it was all announced it seemed like a chance to finally catch up on everything but to begin with this was mostly just endless news refreshes, eating, and like I said, moping. NOT learning all the new languages, running everyday, and all those unstarted projects, because somehow I had absolutely convinced myself that was all going to happen? The Onion covered it best: Man Not Sure Why He Thought Most Psychologically Taxing Situation Of His Life Would Be The Thing To Make Him Productive. I always give myself grief over how little i’ve achieved at the best of times (spoiler: recurring narrative) but the truth is looking back over the last three months I did achieve more than what I realised. In 2020 it feels somewhat wrong to care and think about self when there is so much more important things happening worldwide like equality demonstrations, media misreporting, and THAT global climate shitstorm, but maybe that’s the point to feel less overwhelmed. So to fill in the long gap in this blog between posts (again, recurring narrative) here’s a big list of everything ive been doing/achieved while in lockdown. I guess i’m writing it down and posting to feel better.

  • Took our dog a (big) walk everyday and started playing Ringfit Adventure on the Switch. I hurt my ankle, stopped, and then started again. I haven’t been running properly in weeks, and this one really annoys me. I need to reintroduce activity gradually, slower this time.

  • I played 90 hours of Animal Crossing New Horizons. I can not stress how reassuring and relaxing this was- total escapism for the early days of lockdown, maybe obsessively so. I also replayed the entirety of Grand Theft Auto V and The Last of Us -less relaxing more cathartic- and played lots of Mario Kart Online with friends, this was loads of fun.

  • I built Lego 10255 Assembly Square, and it was great really hving something to focus on each day- it took around 15 hours to build. I took lots of photos and videos during the process, I might still retroactively post about it. Creatively for an online contest I built this.

  • I reopened my Bricklink store to sell off some excess Lego. Buy stuff from me. I also rejoined Spotify and made a few playlists. Follow me.

  • Socially, I participated in lots of videochats and played lots of voice D&D too which was initially different but very cool.

  • Shaved off all my hair. Later shaved off all my beard. Both grew back- what a huge twist.

  • Rewatched all of the Extended Edition Hobbit and Lord of The Rings films. Really enjoyed LOTR for nth time, everytime I watch it I appreciate it more. I watched all of these films too.

  • I did some video editing! I made videos about our recent Edinburgh trip, climbing Ben Bhraggie, and going to Durness and proposing(!), they’re all on my mega-amateur YouTube channel.

  • Started Creative Writing. This is something ive wanted to do for ages so I took a short online course at Open Learn and have been doing some exercises independently too. Ive really enjoyed it, it’s I definitely something I want to keep up once we go “back to normal”. I found this quite relaxing too.

  • I also drank a shocking amount of coffee, and had scrambled eggs for breakfast every other day. Did you know you can make them in the microwave? I did not know that until this year! This was probably the most useful thing I learnt.

And did work training, checked the news a stupid amounts of time like I said, and lets be honest, just generally survived as well. Both my parents had (and recovered!) from Covid-19 back in April/May and the last three months i’ve just felt completely spent energy wise. Things are hard, overcoming them and doing things are harder? There’s a big focus media-wise on going “back to normal”, but normal wasn’t always the best anyway; i’d like to think the last three months have given me new perspective about everything. Like I said i’ve moped quite a bit and found this all a lot more difficult than it maybe should be, so doing everything listed above is just a bonus I guess. There’s been no right or wrong way to survive this mentally at all.

(MOC) Batman Oneshots: ASSAULT ON ACE CHEMICALS- LAB 26

I havent really built anything significant out of Lego for a while. This year I was planning to build quite a lot for display at a number of Lego shows and exhibitions later this year, but like lots of other events, they’ve now since been either postponed or cancelled. There goes all that creative urgency…

New Elementary recently ran a contest to Switch My Lantern Up, a Lego contest using the new Green Lantern um…lantern piece as a seed part of something else. I found it really difficult to use it in a way that’s not obviously Green Lantern’s lantern, and my entry was nowhere near as good as the winners of the contest but I gave it a bash anyway. Collecting Lego DC minifigures has been something ive been doing for as long as they’ve been making them, and in the last year and a bit i’ve started making dioramas or scenes to use them fully. It’s taking a lot longer than it should if i’m honest as i’m very slow at getting things started, but im happy with what ive done so far. There’s a few already in my Lego gallery, so for the contest I decided to build another:

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Dastardly Dr Jonathan Crane aka THE SCARECROW is at it again! Creating FEAR TOXIN in a hidden lab at ACE CHEMICALS, our valiant hero BATMAN shows up to give the doctor a taste of his own medicine! Production is already underway however, and the fright formula now ready for bottling! Can our hero overcome his enemy’s chemical onslaught and save GOTHAM?