Ben Bhraggie 2019

Ben Bhraggie 2019

Travelling south, the stark contrast between the counties of Caithness and Sutherland is always evident. Caithness, brown, mossy, generally flat is immediately at odds with the green, woodland, and hilly Sutherland. As a child in the car, travelling down the A9 road the difference was noticeable as soon as Brora neared, usually signalling we were both an hour away from where we left, but more promisingly, an hour closer to where we were travelling to. As we passed Helmsdale and Portgower we always got closer to whatever destination we were headed, and as we did, we always saw a statue on the hill in the distance.

History lesson: The statue, known locally as The Mannie, sits at 30 metres high on top of the Ben Bhraggie hill, itself reaching a height of just under 400 metres. Erected in 1837, the monument is a large square plinth with a statue above depicting George Granville Leveson-Gower, Marquess of Stafford and first Duke of Sutherland. The Duke himself became notorious for the part he played in the Highland Clearances, turning large amounts of land over to sheep farming industry, and reforms that would result in thousands having to move out and rehome themselves. In 2020 with racist and offensive statues being pulled down and re-evaluated this is perhaps even more relevant, but even with calls and campaigns to remove The Mannie, close to 200 years later the statue remains. Driving along the coast as a child passenger all those years ago and now, as an adult, the figurative shape looms large on the horizon from a considerable distance, always noticeably other than just a “standard” war monument or memorial, definitely a sight.

I had never seen the statue up close or even been at the top of the hill, but for one reason or another my friends and I decided to climb Ben Bhraggie.

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I deactivated Facebook

2020 has been a weird year for me, and i’d by lying if I said Lockdown wasn’t a big part of that. Ive alluded previously to media exhaustion and certainly when everything was all falling apart in March (AND April, AND May) I found myself relying on my phone and social media a lot more. One for news, two for, well, comfort I guess? During Lockdown I’ve leaned heavily into refresh loops and endless scrolling, and while for the most part I found myself informed, I was also continually, disappointed, tired, and angry. Part of this was at poor Government leadership, but a much bigger part of it was just constant online toxicity.

I was mega irritable and always drained, I had a really hard time switching off and doing things for myself. I did achieve things eventually but usually always against an unfocused self. I would switch my phone off for entire days, delete apps, and then a week and a half ago, I just decided to delete everything off Facebook outright. Individual photos from holidays, my graduation, videos, life, everything. It took forever (did you know that Facebook really doesn’t like you bulk-deleting your own content?). Increasingly in recent years I haven’t been posting and ‘engaging’ Facebook and I was only ever there for THE SCROLL and just force of habit. But doing that always fed me the same thing: lots of faux outrage and controversy all the time over lots of stuff that (really) didn’t matter, and just endless inane bickering. Likes and shares for a new shop, sponsored content, and countless “You may be interested in” posts. Annoyingly, the algorithm would continue to repeat that content over again instead of what I actually wanted to see from the people I wanted to hear from. For the last year and maybe more the site definitely wasn’t helping me “connect and share with the people in life” and in Spring 2020 that is really what I needed more than anything. The site -or my algorithm- just became a cycle of judging, hate, and misinformation- something that’s actively in the news atm with corporations and advertisers pulling out too. I doubt the companies are quite as concerned about their mental health as I was, but still.

I asked friends who weren’t on Facebook how they managed without it, if they had FOMO and just generally I think I had built up the very skewed perception that my social life was that website, and that website only. Deactivating it that sunday morning suddenly became a very big decision and I worried that my social life was over, I was going to be weird, I was going to miss so much…I just did it. Lockdown has already helped re-evaluate what and who are important in my life, I know what I like, I know what I want to do, and I know who’s interested in supporting those things by the regular check-ins and catch ups. Things pivoted and changed in these three months for myself and Facebook doesn’t have a place anymore… but for the better I think? That’s why this post exists- I’m going to try blogging again. If I have life events I should be talking about them, I should be sharing and writing about them, it’s just not something I want or necessarily need to do on Facebook. It’s 2020, social media is corporate media, I’m not sure if blogging is cool or not, lets give it a shot. It’s good to try new different things once in a while.

1 Second Everyday: Two Years Later

As of this month i’ve now been filming -and sharing!- my 1 Second Everyday for two whole years! I never quite expected the project to get so far- I started using the app almost randomly and only expected to get one month or so out of it, but making these videos is something I now rely on daily. These last few months have been quite difficult but i’ve still enjoyed putting the videos together, so maybe i’ll just do this forever? Here is the video for June 2020- as ever i’ll be stiching all the months together at year end to make something bigger.

(Did you know embedding Instagram content -and videos!- on Squarespace are a lot harder than necessary? Today I found out they are)

My Favourite Films

Over on Instagram i’ve been taking part in a 30 Day Film “Challenge”, posting film posters and art to specific prompts, and then invariably giving a few comments about why I picked them. Some of the daily prompts are quite vapid, and some a lot more meaningful than others, but It’s something i’ve enjoyed doing daily. Recommending films is something i’m always eager to do, but this gave me reason to actually stop and think what my favourites were. A recurring issue ive had with the challenge is finding myself wanting to write even more about why these films are so good, why they’re special or clever or why I’ve enjoyed them so much, hence this post here.

All-time favourites and top lists are always subject to change, of course, and there’s always going to be discourse and debate about any list. It’s not ordered at all, it’s quite loose, it’s just films that I really like for one reason or another. I’m not even sure if these are my definitive favourite films so i’ve included other possible candidates/runners up at the bottom. I might redo in a year’s time just to see.

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Lockdown 2020: Three Months Later

Three months later, for better or worse, it’s only really now that the UK (and Scotland in particular) is easing lockdown. I’ve written a little about it, but for the most part i’ve reserved the nitty gritty and worst of it all for my diary and daily moping. That might seem a little bit of an exaggeration, but hands down, the last few weeks have been weird, and hopefully a once-in-a-lifetime deal. I can safely say I never want to experience these three months mentally again and i’m sure plenty of others are in a similar boat.

With the last three months suddenly there was an abundance of free time, there’s less social requirements, and for myself just less urgency all around if i’m honest. When it was all announced it seemed like a chance to finally catch up on everything but to begin with this was mostly just endless news refreshes, eating, and like I said, moping. NOT learning all the new languages, running everyday, and all those unstarted projects, because somehow I had absolutely convinced myself that was all going to happen? The Onion covered it best: Man Not Sure Why He Thought Most Psychologically Taxing Situation Of His Life Would Be The Thing To Make Him Productive. I always give myself grief over how little i’ve achieved at the best of times (spoiler: recurring narrative) but the truth is looking back over the last three months I did achieve more than what I realised. In 2020 it feels somewhat wrong to care and think about self when there is so much more important things happening worldwide like equality demonstrations, media misreporting, and THAT global climate shitstorm, but maybe that’s the point to feel less overwhelmed. So to fill in the long gap in this blog between posts (again, recurring narrative) here’s a big list of everything ive been doing/achieved while in lockdown. I guess i’m writing it down and posting to feel better.

  • Took our dog a (big) walk everyday and started playing Ringfit Adventure on the Switch. I hurt my ankle, stopped, and then started again. I haven’t been running properly in weeks, and this one really annoys me. I need to reintroduce activity gradually, slower this time.

  • I played 90 hours of Animal Crossing New Horizons. I can not stress how reassuring and relaxing this was- total escapism for the early days of lockdown, maybe obsessively so. I also replayed the entirety of Grand Theft Auto V and The Last of Us -less relaxing more cathartic- and played lots of Mario Kart Online with friends, this was loads of fun.

  • I built Lego 10255 Assembly Square, and it was great really hving something to focus on each day- it took around 15 hours to build. I took lots of photos and videos during the process, I might still retroactively post about it. Creatively for an online contest I built this.

  • I reopened my Bricklink store to sell off some excess Lego. Buy stuff from me. I also rejoined Spotify and made a few playlists. Follow me.

  • Socially, I participated in lots of videochats and played lots of voice D&D too which was initially different but very cool.

  • Shaved off all my hair. Later shaved off all my beard. Both grew back- what a huge twist.

  • Rewatched all of the Extended Edition Hobbit and Lord of The Rings films. Really enjoyed LOTR for nth time, everytime I watch it I appreciate it more. I watched all of these films too.

  • I did some video editing! I made videos about our recent Edinburgh trip, climbing Ben Bhraggie, and going to Durness and proposing(!), they’re all on my mega-amateur YouTube channel.

  • Started Creative Writing. This is something ive wanted to do for ages so I took a short online course at Open Learn and have been doing some exercises independently too. Ive really enjoyed it, it’s I definitely something I want to keep up once we go “back to normal”. I found this quite relaxing too.

  • I also drank a shocking amount of coffee, and had scrambled eggs for breakfast every other day. Did you know you can make them in the microwave? I did not know that until this year! This was probably the most useful thing I learnt.

And did work training, checked the news a stupid amounts of time like I said, and lets be honest, just generally survived as well. Both my parents had (and recovered!) from Covid-19 back in April/May and the last three months i’ve just felt completely spent energy wise. Things are hard, overcoming them and doing things are harder? There’s a big focus media-wise on going “back to normal”, but normal wasn’t always the best anyway; i’d like to think the last three months have given me new perspective about everything. Like I said i’ve moped quite a bit and found this all a lot more difficult than it maybe should be, so doing everything listed above is just a bonus I guess. There’s been no right or wrong way to survive this mentally at all.

(MOC) Batman Oneshots: ASSAULT ON ACE CHEMICALS- LAB 26

I havent really built anything significant out of Lego for a while. This year I was planning to build quite a lot for display at a number of Lego shows and exhibitions later this year, but like lots of other events, they’ve now since been either postponed or cancelled. There goes all that creative urgency…

New Elementary recently ran a contest to Switch My Lantern Up, a Lego contest using the new Green Lantern um…lantern piece as a seed part of something else. I found it really difficult to use it in a way that’s not obviously Green Lantern’s lantern, and my entry was nowhere near as good as the winners of the contest but I gave it a bash anyway. Collecting Lego DC minifigures has been something ive been doing for as long as they’ve been making them, and in the last year and a bit i’ve started making dioramas or scenes to use them fully. It’s taking a lot longer than it should if i’m honest as i’m very slow at getting things started, but im happy with what ive done so far. There’s a few already in my Lego gallery, so for the contest I decided to build another:

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Dastardly Dr Jonathan Crane aka THE SCARECROW is at it again! Creating FEAR TOXIN in a hidden lab at ACE CHEMICALS, our valiant hero BATMAN shows up to give the doctor a taste of his own medicine! Production is already underway however, and the fright formula now ready for bottling! Can our hero overcome his enemy’s chemical onslaught and save GOTHAM?

Edinburgh 2020 #lastnormalvideo

With UK Lockdown still (mostly) in effect and Covid_19 still being a force throughout the world, the BBC recently encouraged it’s readers and viewers to send them their last normal photo. A #lastnormalphoto hashtag was born and a trend was soon in full effect, with plenty of people contributing their own memories.

In March earlier this year my fiancée (!) and I were in Edinburgh a week before things realy started happening in the UK, and there was no real sense of impending change whatsoever. It was still a problem countries away, or so our government treated it. Our trip away was travelling on public transport, having brunch out, seeing alt-rock band ‘Trail of Dead live in very crowded venue, and visiting museums and galleries. Pretty fun, normal stuff, and a great means of celebrating our newly engagement.

I recorded lots of the trip while we were away, more for recollection than anything else, but ive made a big video of it all and uploaded it over on my YouTube channel. It’s only two months ago, but with all the recent changes it now feels so much longer. It’s happy memories, but it’s sad too, with everything that’s happened since. Most of all, it’s baffling seeing big spaces and groups of people together that we presumably wont see again for a while. Strange times indeed.

Lockdown 2020

Im not really the best at updating or writing here. In 2020 so far ive proposed to my partner, seen my favourite band for the first time in 15 years, and now most recently, possibly sprained my ankle. Nonetheless the big life event for everyone at the moment is the Covid_19 situation- social distancing, isolation, and mass political lies in a hellscape straight out of your favourite sci-fi novel.


The UK entered lockdown on the 23rd of March 2020- (for better or worse) quite a while after the rest of Europe. You read about it elsewhere and how they’ve coped but when the quarantine hit everything just felt weird. One walk a day. No visiting friends or family. No loitering without reason. Only shopping once a week. No going to work. Its a sudden abundance of free time but its very demoralising, empty, strange time as well. Lots of reading, online video calls, boardgames and well, house stuff.


So here’s the first month of Lockdown just passed: A mood-board/scrapbook effort of stuff ive captured or saved during “Strange Times” these last few weeks. Its mostly quite (forgive me) random stuff, but given the circumstances it feels like something that should be marked or remembered as well- that month in 2020 where everyone had to stay at home to avoid catching a life threatening virus. Just like your favourite dystopian sci-fi thriller, like I said.

1 Second Everyday : 2019

2019 was pretty great. I listed some of the good and bad things about the year, and throughout the last 12 months I continued my 1 Second Everyday.

Using the app is now something that’s pretty much autonomous in my life- filming/recording each day is just a given. For as much enjoyment as I get out of making the video however, the greater delight is watching it afterwards, and seeing everything that’s happened.

The same is true here, where there is no way i’d have remembered nearly as much of the year as I would’ve without documenting it like this. The app and project have been a great way of identifying the smaller moments, scenes, and events of my life, and piecing them together like the patchwork of smaller moments -that life in itself is- has been incredibly rewarding. Equally fulfilling has been friends and family saying they look forward to seeing each completed month on Instagram- sometimes i’m invariably looking too closely at these seconds so its great to hear things like that.

As with last time i’ve uploaded the full video over on YouTube- any likes, comments or subscribes would be greatly appreciated!